MI-5 and other grand ideas

I've been pondering tonight the range of trouble I could get myself into if I was inclined to get drunk. MI-5 had lots of great situations, brought on during times of high stress, but directly precipitated by drunkenness. I already feel like I make a fool of myself plenty often as it is, so I could be quite a disaster in the making if I started drinking much. Actually, there is a second side to that idea, however, that I overanalyze too much, and that I don't actually act any more foolish than anyone else, whatever my perceptions. By this line of reasoning I might benefit from loosening up a bit and taking the chances I consciously prevent myself from considering now. Actually, even the friends most strongly opposed to alcohol, who vehemently reject the idea that I might drink the stuff, all have at some point suggested this 'loosening' effect as the one obvious benefit to my drinking. Why is this running through my head now? I'd have to be really sleep-deprived or drunk, or have nothing to lose, to be exact, but suffice it to say that the guy (It is always a guy, of course. Nothing else can have quite this sort of effect on people.) I would be/ ought to be talking to has no idea- won't have any idea the way things are going. I considered a few months back whether I was interested in dating during my MA, and came to no definite conclusions then. Now, of course, I have my committee pretty much formed, with a pretty solid start to my thesis development, and a growing sense of where I want to be in 5 years. Since the mystery guy is not an integral part of my life now, he is not included in those plans, and every semester that he remains the 'really nice, cute guy' I am not dating, he is less likely to fit into those plans. That is all nice and logical. Fine. I just have to make sure I don't wind up drinking too much, ever, in his company or with his friends, while I am in a mood like this one. I have few enough inhibitions against telling people awkward information while sober.